This morning I went to a taping of the Martha Stewart Live show. I twas a barrel full of monkeys. Or more like puppies. It was an Animal Episode. Gloria Estefan was there and they cooked Cuban food and Gloria plugged her new book as much as she possibly could, bless her heart. I was invited to the taping by JM, my Big Gay Bro. We had an awesome time....except for the yuckfest that is NYC today. Rain, rain, rain....I hate it. JM's bf R is also having a Martha experience today. He will be making a debut on The Apprentice: Martha Stewart tonight at 9 p.m. on NBC. It is not clear yet whether his character will be a recurring one or not. Hey, a girl can dream.

Still having problems with my G situation. I have written him a long letter explaining how I feel about everything. Why I am mad, sad, missing him, still in love with him, etc. Don't know if I should send it. I still haven't called him either. I just feel like two years down the tubes is a waste of time and we should try to make it work. There was really nothing wrong with our relationship. We never fought, we knew each other inside and out, never lied to each other, had amazing sex. I could really use some advice. I would like to thank scrappy rose for taking interest. Hope you can help a little more.

Love,

C