I went with G to the movies tonight. We went and saw Narnia. It was pretty good though they padded it for time and added some extra stuff. But I will review the movie later....After the movie we were walking to the train and he asked me if I wanted to come over. OF COURSE I did, but I told him I wanted to go home first to do some stuff...I wanted to shower, try and get a hold of my old roommate, talk to a friend of mine via AIM cause he had a story he wanted to tell me, (all stupid reasons NOT to go home with my boyfriend) etc. So I got home, signed onto AIM, left an away message and went to the store to get a soda. Sprite to be exact. When I returned, it was so warm in my room and it was so cold outside that I laid down for a minute to warm up and you know what I did?....I passed the fuck out! I wake up about a half hour ago and turn on my phone (it was dead which is another story and a very angry letter to Verizon) thinking I had only slept for 20 minutes or so and it's almost 2:30!! I had 5 voicemails, one of which was from G asking if I got home ok and if I was still coming over. I instantly felt like shit. I had ditched him without even wanting/trying to. I called him twice and he didn't answer but it's not like I expected him to because it's so late. I left him a semi-groggy message asking him to call me in the morning and how bad I felt. Now I am sitting here in front of my computer, feeling like the WORST BOYFRIEND EVER, almost in tears, still wanting to go over there because I want to spend the night with him yet not knowing how to do so because he would have to buzz me in and I don't want to wake him because he has to work tomorrow. I don't know if he would even answer the phone. I am very upset with myself right now. So I am saying this to him and the world, I apologize for making you worry and I am sorry for leaving you alone on a night where I promised to be there to hold you close to me and keep the nightmares away. From the bottom of my heart, please accept this deeply felt apology.