I hope that when Gwen Stefani comes back after her pregnancy with her 2nd album, she lets those poor Asian women go. It's very sad that she's exploiting them for their ethnicity. Maybe for her second album she'll have black chicks or maybe Dutch maids complete with wooden shoes and everything....

I heart Karen...tis true

This is all bullshit. I am fucking stuck in Queens with no escape plan. It's like the fucking soldiers in Iraq. So here I am, trappedin my apt. No way to hang out with friends, no way to see my BF (G is in Brooklyn), and possibly no way to go home for Christmas. If I can not get to Port Authority by Thursday, I hope the MTA doesn't think I won't cut a bitch! This is fucking ridiculous. The MTA are being childish and greedy. I don't think there is any reason that they need any of these new demands because their service sucks! There are times when I have had to wait anywhere from 30 mins to an hour fo a fucking train and when I do they are dirty or going the wrong way or some stupid shit like that. I think once things improve on the subway lines, THEN they can be rewarded...not by just demanding shit like this and fucking over an ENTIRE CITY! Stupid motherfuckers. I am so fucking pissed. AAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!! (sorry for the swearing but it comes naturally when I am pissed.)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

My friend P (above, right) and I went to Duplex last night after some failed attempts at LIPS, and Starbucks. Had drink, chatted some then got on the train before midnight just incase the MTA strike was actually going to happen. Got soaked. Good times. Before I met up with him I went to possibly THE best fast food place in town, The Pita Pit. It's on West 3rd and 6th Ave for all those who don't know about this amazing meccaof pita-y goodness. We had one in Ithaca (where I am from sillies) and I was an addict for a while. Take the orange or blue line to West 4th and enjoy! 

This is possibly the bestest game ever and I am soooo addicted to it right now...BACK OF P.E.T.A.!!

Poor Kitty... My Best is 813 feet.

C

I went with G to the movies tonight. We went and saw Narnia. It was pretty good though they padded it for time and added some extra stuff. But I will review the movie later....After the movie we were walking to the train and he asked me if I wanted to come over. OF COURSE I did, but I told him I wanted to go home first to do some stuff...I wanted to shower, try and get a hold of my old roommate, talk to a friend of mine via AIM cause he had a story he wanted to tell me, (all stupid reasons NOT to go home with my boyfriend) etc. So I got home, signed onto AIM, left an away message and went to the store to get a soda. Sprite to be exact. When I returned, it was so warm in my room and it was so cold outside that I laid down for a minute to warm up and you know what I did?....I passed the fuck out! I wake up about a half hour ago and turn on my phone (it was dead which is another story and a very angry letter to Verizon) thinking I had only slept for 20 minutes or so and it's almost 2:30!! I had 5 voicemails, one of which was from G asking if I got home ok and if I was still coming over. I instantly felt like shit. I had ditched him without even wanting/trying to. I called him twice and he didn't answer but it's not like I expected him to because it's so late. I left him a semi-groggy message asking him to call me in the morning and how bad I felt. Now I am sitting here in front of my computer, feeling like the WORST BOYFRIEND EVER, almost in tears, still wanting to go over there because I want to spend the night with him yet not knowing how to do so because he would have to buzz me in and I don't want to wake him because he has to work tomorrow. I don't know if he would even answer the phone. I am very upset with myself right now. So I am saying this to him and the world, I apologize for making you worry and I am sorry for leaving you alone on a night where I promised to be there to hold you close to me and keep the nightmares away. From the bottom of my heart, please accept this deeply felt apology.

I heart Pearls Before Swine....It make me giggle.

p.s. JM, I am waiting for my phone call

eBay: Britney Spears gives bad Christmas Gifts!!! Get it now! (item 6463039287 end time Dec-15-05 20:58:30 PST)

1) Last night, a very good friend told me he loved me. This is the first time I have heard it from his lips. I'm still not quite sure how to react.

2) I illegally download music and videos sometimes...but only when I am desperate.

3) I know I use my sexuality to my advantage. I use it to get what I want. Is that bad? I've used it before to get better grades, skip class with no ramifications, manipulate people into doing what I want them to do, torturing people I have no interest in by making them think they had a chance, believe it or not actually get out of a ticket, etc...

4) I am currently dodging my credit card company because I have no money for them to pay my bill with...oops! There goes my credit rating.

5) I wear women's jeans. They are tighter and they fit better. I am tired of the normal men's jeans that are huge and have no shape. I don't want my jeans to hang off my ass, in fact it's the reason I am wearing pants at all because I don't want everyone to see all my junk up in my trunk. So fuck corporate America and their idea of what men should wear according to the straight people.

I don't have anymore right now but I will think of some and get back to y'all!

C

Me at a Halloween Party this year dressed as Tommy Gnosis...hotness I know (kssing) 

The other day I went to Central Park with T...we had fun snapping pics and chilling (literally I was freezing). We walked around the skating rink and stuff...we ended up at FAO Swartz. I miss the big clock face. I know the person who owns it now. I partied at his house. He lives next to J.Lo in a mansion. PARTY HARDY in a heated pool. But back to the subject. They have neato toys there. They were doing a demonstration on a giant piano like in Big featuring Tom Hanks. And they have oodles of old toys and dolls and some of them is creepy and make me shudder. *SHUDDERS* We also found robots and huge stuffed aminals....the had a zoo type thing and the giant elephant was $15,000. I wish.

Just having fun posting pics and telling stories...
C

 

Ok JM, where are you? I know you read this and for some reason, I can't get into your blog. WHAT IS UP?! I need some info...p.s. thanks for the comments.

I just went and saw Memoirs of a Geisha with P and C. It was actually really good and made me want to read the book. That's something I want to start doing before I see the movie. That one scene with her dancing in the snow during a dance number was too short, I was expecting so much more. The rest of it was preety damn cool. Catty bitch fests and slutty whores, everything that makes a good flick. I heart Pumpkin and Hatsumomo. They rock my shit out! The ending was a little lack luster though. It left everything up in the air like there is some sequel coming or something. I was told in the book, the ending is a little more concrete. AND I WANT CLOSURE DAMN IT! I was also very surprised to hear/see that a man wrote the novel on which the movie is based. I guess I had never paid attention to the author's name before it was flashed onscreen. Good for him. He did well describing and expressing women and their actions and thoughts in my opinion. 1 1/2 thumbs up! 3 stars out of 4.

C

Friday night I went and saw Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire on IMAX. Holy crap I got so dizzy. I was totally cool though. Then I went to BARracuda with P and C and had a drink. Shaquida's (a drag queen) was supposed to start at 11 but we stayed until 12:30 and nothing. We asked the bartender when it was starting and he said "a little after 1." We left. Came home and C and I got into a fight. fun fun. Things are fine now but this was the second time in two days where he just lost his temper with me and I wasn't having it.
Things were fine the next day though. I went to a Starbucks on 19th St. in Chelsea and just sat there and wrote in my journal and read James Frey's A Million Little Pieces for most of the day. Some guy sat next to me and kept making eyes at me in the reflection of the window. It would have been nice if he had just talked to me, but I'm assuming he was looking for a hookup or something. Whatever. He left after sitting there for a good hour and a half.
Then I went home and got ready to go to Duplex with C. It was Vinnie's birthday party. He turned 24. It was fun, it was kinda an open mic thing where people got up on stage and sang Broadway songs. Some people were good and some were bad. P showed up and he had told me earlier that there was something he wanted to tell me but when I took him outside so we could be alone, he said he didn't want to talk about it. I guess it's not that important. Hmm...Then I got home around 2/2:30 and fell asleep.
G came over and woke me up at like 3:30 in the morning. ;-) That was fun. We went to a Diner close by the next morning/afternoon but I didn't eat, half because I wasn't really hungry and half because I couldn't afford anything. I don't like being a financial burden on people. I felt bad. I wish I had a fucking job, then I could at least cover myself when it came to things like this. I spent all of Saturday basically in bed with him watching a movie and some Will and Grace episodes. Made dinner for him. Then fell asleep. He left this morning.
As he was leaving, and after we said goodbye and kissed and said we loved each other a hundred times over, I just stared at him as he was standing in my room putting his coat on. I was just laying in bed watching him, observing him. I was trying to absorb him and keep his memory in the very front of my head. This may sound cheesy, but I miss him when he is gone. I wanted to keep him nestled in the backs of my eyes so when I open them, he'll be there even when he is not. Wow am I corny or what?

Later,
C

(Glocester, Rhode Island) A group of parents is calling a high school field trip a "promotion of homosexuality". The parents are threatening to pull their teenage children from a Ponaganset High School trip to see the movie "Rent" at a local theater.

"Rent", the film version of the long running Pulitzer and Tony-winning drama, is about a group of young New Yorkers coming to grips with poverty and AIDS features two gay couples.

Although rated PG-13, the parents say the movie is too controversial and adult for the grade 9 students.

"The lifestyles depicted in this movie are not the majority, not the lifestyles of 99.9 percent of the kids that live in these two towns," School Committee cochair Donna Mansolillo told a meeting of the committee this week.

Mansolillo then handed out a review of the film by the conservative group Focus on the Family that calls the movie "an in-your-face glorification of homosexuality and lesbianism."

Mansolillo's cochair, Gary King, agreed with her assessment saying there was no educational value to the movie.

"I'm not charged with the social education of students. I have to protect the integrity of students in our district." he said.

But another member of the committee disagreed.

"I just don't get what the problem is," Kelly Hunter said. "If you don't want your kid to go, don't sign the [permission] slip."

Hunter is the only member of the committee with a teen going on the trip.

Principal Joseph P. Maruszczak has refused to cancel the trip, saying that it will encourage classroom discussions about diversity and tolerance.

Just watching Conan tonight and he said that Britney Spears has fired Kevin Federline's bodyguard because she caught them buying pot. I've said it before and I'll say it many more times....GO BRITNEY!

Everytime JM and I hang out...he usually disappears for a good week afterwards. He doesn't post on his blog, he never calls me back...I dunno what he is up to but he's gone. It's funny how this happens everytime. Where do you go JM? Where are you? Where could you be?

They are only rumors (any we all know how many of those are in Hollywood) but apparently Britney has kicked Kevin out! The nation can celebrate! It's about time she kicked that white trashy mo-fo to the curb. Not only did he drag her name through the mud but he has obviously been using her for his own personal gain. To promote himself professionally and promoting his new "album." I love a comment I heard Britney had said reguarding that. "Your album will sell 100, 1,000 if you are lucky," and that was before all the problems. GO BRIT! His constant spending is even getting on MY nerves and it's not my damned money. He DOES get $300,000 for every year he is married to her according to the pre-nup, but she should cut her loses now and get it done with. I think Kevin Federline (which is a stupid fucking name) is one of the most hated people in the U.S. if not the world. Look what he's done to America's Sweeheart...he's turned her into America's Trashy Chick With Bare Feet In Public Restrooms!! NO MORE BRITNEY!! What happened to the Jutin Timberlakes and the Colin Farrells, we could respect everyone involved in those situations...I hope to respect you once again Britney, but I know there is a high chance you have been fooled into loving a man who never loved you in the first place.

C

I heart this song....lemme know what you think.

It's like 9:00 in the morning and I am sitting here watching the Today Show (don't judge me) and they just mentioned Kenneth Lee Boyd who was the 1,000th man to be executed in the United States.

"The execution of Kenneth Boyd has not made this a better or safer world," his attorney, Thomas Maher, said. "If this 1,000th execution is a milestone, it's a milestone we should all be ashamed of." - CNN.com

Now on one level I agree with this quote, which they quoted on the air on the Today Show, and on another level I don't. I do not feel ashamed for this man's death. 1) Obviously he is a bad man. (yet still no reason to kill him) 2) I do not support the death penalty. I feel dissappointed in all the people who support the death penalty who should be ashamed. If you support it, then you're a part of it. This man killed two people, true but if you support the death penalty, it's like you're killing him. Everyone in the U.S. who supports this basically killed him all at once. A mass murder. What does this say about the people who support the death penalty though? "Killing people is bad so we're gonna kill you." (insert southern accent and a beer in hand) Makes sense doesn't it? All of America should mourn the death of this man for one reason or another. Afterall, he was a human life.

The full story on CNN.

C

I wrote this about my father last night. Looking for some feedback.

It's As If

It's as if I trusted you to take me there yet you failed and fell flat on your face without even trying.
It's as if I gave you my childhood innocence and you stole, sold it to make a quick buck.
It's as if a mild mannered man who was once my hero builds me up every time only to let me free fly away and disbelieve the words constantly cascading out of an over-tired, expired, done, I'm finished with your dispising eyes and cries always accusing me of not being good enough mouth.
It's as if with your overbearing strength and me sitting in the backseat of another stranger's car clinging to the red bleeding from the dead roots in my scalp after having been lifted by them by you is the only sign of love I will ever see, if you can consider pain love.
It's as if I'm sick of having to come up with quick-fix tricks to tell everyone why you aren't or never were there because it was your choice to leave me, decieve me, concieve me and bring into this world of self-hate you call your life of selfish sensitivity.
It's as if another babysitter is holding me closer than you ever did to stop me from slitting the wrists, calling quits on what was what I wanted from you.
It's as if that last tear was the last tear to fall from these eyes while staring into yours terrified that look like mine because mine look like yours, no, I never wanted to be a chore, a whore for your attention.
It's as if you'll always be a last resort when I'm short on cash and we clash becaue you and I both know your not responsible enough to show support, here or in court for a child that is so from your vine of DNA design. Is it a crime to ask for a father?

Let me know what ya think.

C

I am republishing this photo so I can make it my profile pic... 

So I have decided on a drag name thanks to some lovely suggestions from all those out there. (DRUM ROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLL) Audrey Aquanox! Love it! Thanks Blogzie!

Today I went to see the Isaac Mizrahee (I completely spelled that wrong!) with JM. (sadly Ric could not go.) I was a pretty good time though the show seemed patchy and very thrown together. I hope they get on their feet because Isaac is pretty damned funny and all over the place. He commented on this cheap magazine chicks shoes but they were the uglied f-ing shoes I have ever seen. Judy Gold was a funny dyke but the highlight, for a second, was Madonna, after I quickly found out that it was a taped segment. (DAMN IT!) Well, I already met her once so I guess every fag only gets the grace of her once in a lifetime.

After that JM gave me tickets to The Colbert Report. I went with the boy and his roomate J. We had a great time though J had to sit on the other side of the studio because there were no seats together. We went and got dinner afterwards. Stephen Colbert is probably the nicest show host I have seen. Unlike Martha and Isaac, he talked the audience not only before the show but during commercial breaks. We taped it tonight but it will be on tomorrow on Comedy Central at 11:30 right after The Daily Show (next on the list to see hopefully).

JM, Ric, G, and I and going to double date soon which is exciting. Can't wait! :)

Much Love,
C